Eventually you have to stop kidding yourself.
Eventually you have to get the fuck over it and accept that maybe you have failed. Maybe it wasn’t your fault at first, but you let it get under your skin.
Eventually you will realize that if you did it before, there’s no fucking reason why you can’t do it again.
Eventually you have to stop pretending you are happy the way things are.
It is the most uncomfortable feeling to start your day with when your clothes no longer fit. When they’re tight. When your tummy feels too big.
And you know, for a while it wasn’t this way.
For a while everything felt good or even big. And that was ok.
Tight is not an ok feeling.
Tight feels like there is no air.
Tight feels like everyone is looking at you.
And not wanting to look at yourself.
When you hold up some clothes that looks really big, only to realize it wouldn’t fit you…..
Eventually it will break you.
And through that, you can find the strength to change.